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50 Cent Responds To Fabolous' Twitter Comments

Reading what Fab said about me on Twitter was disappointing.I have extended myself to Fab personally to allow him to expand himself as an international Touring Artist.I Thought we were Friends but that's cool.Law #2: Never put too much trust in Friends, Learn how to use EnemiesBe wary of friends—they will betray you more quickly, for they are easily aroused to envy. They also become spoiled and tyrannical. But hire a former enemy and he will be more loyal than a friend, because he has more to prove. In fact, you have more to fear from friends than from enemies. If you have no enemies, find a way to make them.—50th Law of Power.Am I 50 Cent or Am I Machiavelli? Dammmm!!!if you missed it, check out what Fab said: Fab Take Shots At 50 Cent Via Twitter?
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Dr.Dre Says Lack Of Motivation Delaying Detox

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Anyone who is a fan of hip hop has been waiting forever for Dr Dre's "Detox" album, but it seems to be one of those things that will never come. In a recent interview, Dr Dre said that a lack of motivation is contributing to the delay of the highly-anticipated album.Although he didn't give any real details, Dre did promise that the project will hit stores in 2010. "[I'm] only [working] on my album that I've been working on for the last ten years, that's it [laughs]," Dre said about what projects he is working on. "The Detox record. Hopefully I'll get it done by the end of this year and you'll hear it next year. Motivation and other things getting in the way, that's it [has caused the delay.]"In related news, Yesterday we reported that The Game posted a picture of himself with Dr Dre & Snoop in the studio and said they were working on "Detox." The Game wrote "CAN U SAY "DETOX" ??? IN THE STUDIO WIT DRE & SNOOP. WE BOUT 2 MAKE ALOT OF PEOPLE MAD. RIDE WIT US OR GET RAN OVER ! AFTERMATH OR DIE!," on his twitter... Only time will tell!Dr Dre - Talks About Detox Album Delay
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Olivia Talks Life After G-Unit In Hollywood

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The former first lady of G-Unit, Olivia, recently sat down to talk about leaving 50 Cent's label, finishing up her upcoming album and persuing her career in the movie industry. The former covergirl for KING Magazine says she has been busy since leaving G-Unit."I've been doing movies, y'all, finishing the album, I've been touring overseas, it's been a whole lot that y'all haven't seen me doing but the people who have been following me online checking out where I've been, they know what's up," Olivia said in an interview. "I've been working even though y'all don't think I've been working...When I was on G-Unit, I had to conform to what was on G-Unit, so I couldn't come out with R&B records because I was with a bunch of rappers so now I get to do exactly what I want to do and you get to hear me really sing, but again, for the people that come to my live shows, they see what I do...I'm no longer with G-Unit, I'm back solo."Olivia - Says She Has Been Doing Movies
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50 Talks Design Of New Album Cover

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A few days ago the cover of 50 Cent's upcoming "Before I Self Destruct" album leaked featuring 50 in a part demon, part battle-scarred Terminator style. "The album cover, I sat there and thought about it," Fif said. "I wanted to do something that was completely different than I’ve ever done. The Curtis album, I was pretty close in the camera when I done it. I felt it was intimate."50 says he wanted to make this one, even more intimate. "This project is even more [intimate], but it’s harder. I didn’t sugarcoat things. My imperfections are visible on there. I’m in a secure enough space. … It’s a huge gape in hip-hop. There ain’t no middle ground. You’re either here or you’re there. To create the middle ground, the guys that have been up here gotta come down and bring everybody to the forefront where they seen. That’s what this is actually about."
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Shyne Officially Released From Prison

CBSNEWS Reports NEW YORK (CBS) New York Rapper Shyne was released from prison today after serving more than eight years for his role in a 1999 New York night club shooting involving mentor Sean "P. Diddy" Combs and actress Jennifer Lopez. A Clinton Correctional Facility staffer confirmed his release. Shyne, whose real name is Jamal Barrow, was charged in March 2001, with attempted murder, assault and reckless endangerment. According to MTV, "The rapper admitted to firing a gun at Club New York, but maintained that he was acting in self-defense and that another gunman's bullets injured the two victims. He faced up to 25 years in prison." He was sentenced to only 10, which he began on June 1, 2001. "It's a blessing that he's coming home," Combs said in a recent radio interview on Hot 97 in New York. "I spoke to him like a couple of weeks ago and he sounded like he was in good spirits." While serving time, the rapper released two albums and reportedly converted to Judiasm. He legally changed his name Moses Michael Leviy.
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Rap-Up Reports Rihanna keeps warm in style with a Chanel muffler at the Chanel ready-to-wear show during Paris Womenswear Fashion Week Spring/Summer 2010 in France on Tuesday (Oct. 6). The reclusive Prince also sat in the hay-strewn seats at Karl Lagerfeld’s rustic chic show which resembled a county fair.

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HipHopWired Reports Hip-Hop is at a cross roads and ignorance can no longer be shadowed as freedom of creative expression. With teenagers dying mercifully at the hands of each other and recent media attention only being drawn to the epidemic as the murders of 16-year-old Derrion Albert from Chicago and 13-year old Kevin Miller in Queens made national headlines, Hip-Hop has to stop talking about it and start being about their actions. One MC taking responsibility is “Queensbridge's Finest” Cormega. While many rappers glorify their time or “alleged” time in the streets, Cormega's tone was always apologetic for the ills of his past which is one reason he's been highly regarded as a lyricist's lyricist. As MC's speak on the recent light being put on the murder of our young Black youth by each other, Mega took a moment to speak with Hip-Hop Wired about MC's becoming more conscience and being more accountable for the words they put in their rhymes. Speaking on the power to shape minds of the next generation and putting the bullshit street antics to the back burner, Cormega stated, “I came to the understanding, that whenever you have power, whether it's a lot of power or a little bit of power, you have influence. And influence, especially in ghettos when there's kids looking up to us, or young men and adults looking up to us, what we say is indoctrination. Some of the things we say, people apply that to their life. When I was growing up I heard Kool G Rap say, ‘I keep stepping with a nine in my waist line/ Got 16 shots now the weights mine.' So when he was saying that shit I was doing that shit that he was saying in the song but I was looking up to him because I felt he was speaking my life. So you can say I was living that life and him speaking it made me respect what he said even more. I don't want to be that dude that's glorifying drugs and glorifying some of the things that I have done because there's a lot of young dudes that look up to me. And I never knew that until I became internet savvy and I had dudes send me letters from jail or people wrote me actual emails saying, ‘Yo, your music saved my life.' And I never knew that my music affected their life or helped them get through life. Songs like “Are You My Nigga” helped them realize who their real friends are so my words have an affect on people because they look at me as a person who's telling the truth so I don't want to glorify the negativity.” Gearing to release his third solo project Born & Raised on October 20th, Mega continues to speak the realness with cuts like “Make It Clear,” “Live & Learn” and “Journey.” Using his music to teach and inspire hope and delivering his story in the form of lessons learned, Mega added, “I got shot before but that doesn't give me street credibility at all, that makes me a victim. So I don't want no young dude thinking that's a rite of passage. Because when I was growing up the niggas that came out of jail, we looked up to them. We was like he was in C-74, he went to jail…he's a real nigga. But at the end of the day he was in jail cause he got caught, we have to stop looking up to people for the wrong reasons. We have to start looking up to people for the right reasons, like there's people that come home from the armed forces. They risked their life to fight for our liberties and we don't even look up to them and give them respect and those are the people that we should be looking up to. So when I made my music as I grew older I became apologetic but I've been apologetic. I know a dude that I shot and I regretted I shot him. It was for a reason, it was for the cause but it's like damn. At the end of the day I could've killed that nigga and it wasn't over nothing. And there's times I look back when I was younger and we stood on the block. There was a time when I gave a crack head crack when she was pregnant but I stopped because I realized you might be affecting that child. Other people's mentality was ‘Fuck it. If I don't give it to her someone else is gonna give it to her' but you can't think like that. So when I made my music, I don't just give you the cinematic view, like Menace II Society. That's a movie but that shows you the ills but you can't smell the asphalt, or you can't smell the gun powder from that movie so I'm trying to give it to you as raw as I could and as true as I could so you don't make the same mistakes I made. Yeah, I went to jail but that doesn't make me a real nigga. That makes me a nigga that got caught for some bullshit and that makes me stripped for those years that I lost doing that bid.” Living in the white man's world, Cormega also addressed the blocks many dealers claim they own but in actuality that corner will belong to someone else if they become incarcerated and it's still not the next dealer's property either. Giving an even more in depth look at the harshness many in the hood face yet many rappers front like they lived that life, Cormega also declares that it's time for MCs to take responsibility and stop reliving the past. “I sold drugs but for what glory did I sell drugs. Cause, think about it. You sell drugs and you say this is my block and you got the whole block locked but whose block is it really? 10 yers from now you'll be in jail or if not you might still be making the same money you've been making but what happens? What do you gain from that? There's been dudes that killed their man or flipped on their man over petty drug money so it's like I give you the truth in my music so you can apply it to your life. Whether you do it in a positive or negative way but if it give you the truth and I tell you the downfalls of it, at last nobody can say I glorified the bullshit. Some people can actually learn from me. If I could do my life different I would. If I could have my mother back…my mother got killed in front of me when I was 5. I hear rappers say they had a hard life and I just be looking at them like this nigga's a clown because I know they didn't. I know they lived with their mothers and had parents there but they were just the fucked up kid out the bunch. Their other brothers and sisters are doing good. I had a hard life, if I could've had an easy life, I would've chosen that path. I know there's some kid somewhere that's hustling at 16 like I was, or there's a young kid sitting in the jail cell scared trying to figure out what's his next move and thinking he can't do nothing with his life. So I'm trying to be that person…everybody knows I went to jail and been through shit, so I want to be that person where some young dude somewhere or some older dude somewhere can say, ‘Yo Mega went home from jail and he made it.' I can do that. A rapper won't tell you this cause they haven't been to jail; some of them have but a lot of them are fronting. When you're in jail you're taught to believe that you're nothing, that's how the C.O.s look at you. I had a C.O. look at me with disgust and say “convict.” He called me a fucking convict. Basically they telling you you're not shit and you can't get a job when you come home and you don't have any dreams. So for me, every step that I take further or height that I rise to higher is letting every person in jail know: Yo mega came straight from jail and he got a deal and he's on. I'm trying to inspire people. Just like Bernard Hopkins, he came from jail and he's a lightweight champion, and that's what I try and do with my music and my life.”
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Braylon Edwards NFL.Com Reports BEREA, Ohio -- LeBron James called Browns receiver Braylon Edwards "childish" for allegedly punching James' friend early Monday morning outside of a Cleveland night club James said Edwards punched Edward Givens, a friend of James' and a promoter with a Cleveland marketing firm who was working outside the club around 2:30 a.m. EDT. "I've never crossed paths with Braylon before, but it seems like there's a little jealousy going on with Braylon and me and my friends. I have no idea why," James said. "I've never said anything to Braylon at all. But for him to do that is very childish. My friend is 130 pounds. Seriously. It's like hitting one of my kids. It doesn't make sense."

Lebron James Edwards was not available for comment Monday as the Browns regrouped following their 23-20 overtime loss to Cincinnati on Sunday. He did post a message on his Twitter account -- OfficialBraylon -- at 5:25 p.m., offering praise to James. "I have no issue with LeBron," Edwards tweeted. "I respect and admire him." James says he was home when the fight occurred, but got a call from Givens telling him about it at 7 a.m. Monday.

Edward Givens Edwards' manager issued a statement, hoping to soothe any perceived rivalry between two of Cleveland's biggest sports stars. "Braylon has nothing but the highest respect for LeBron James as an athlete and person," Hayes Grooms said. Browns coach Eric Mangini said he has spoken with Edwards about the alleged fight. "I know there is an incident that has been reported with Braylon Edwards, it's something that I am aware of. It is something that I spoke with Braylon about and personal conduct is very important to me. I always want our players to put themselves in the most positive positions. This is something I will continue to gather information on." Edwards faces possible disciplinary action from the Browns and the league. The (Cleveland) Plain Dealer first reported the incident on its Web site, cleveland.com. According to a police incident report, Givens accused an unidentified man of punching him in the face following an argument at approximately 2:30 a.m. Givens, who is listed as 5-foot-7, 135 pounds on the report, said the 6-foot-3, 215-pound Edwards hit him with a closed fist. He told police he suffered a black eye and cut and was treated at a hospital. Edwards' name did not appear in a police report. He was not arrested and there are no charges pending against him. Edwards was not in Cleveland's locker room during the portion open to the media. Givens told the Plain Dealer for a story on its Web site that he was outside greeting people when Edwards approached him. "Braylon comes up and started saying things, degrading me," Givens said. "He said if it wasn't for LeBron (James) or the Four Horsemen (James' friends and business partners), I wouldn't have what I have, nor would I be able to get girls. Everyone knows Braylon has a problem with LeBron. "So I had to speak up for myself. The conversation started to escalate. As some of his teammates started to pull him back, he punched me. As long as I've known Braylon, I've allowed him and his friends to come into our events free of charge. Whatever jealousy he has with LeBron, he felt he needed to take it out on me." Edwards did not catch a pass in the loss to Cincinnati. It was the first time in 62 career games Edwards did not have at least one reception.
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Young Jeezy aka The Snowman is back. Gearing up for the release of his new album "Thug Motivation 103". This is the first street single. An official single should be on the way soon. After being named one of the top 10 hottest rappers in the game today by MTV expect Jeezy to deliver a great album Download Here
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AllHipHop Reports Harlem, New York producer/rapper Ron Browz recently revealed to AllHipHop.com that he has split from his label, Universal Motown. According to Browz, he could not see eye-to-eye with the label, despite experiencing success in 2009, including two BET Award nominations for hit records he recorded. Browz, who produced classic tracks by rappers like Big L, 50 Cent, Snoop Dogg, DMX and Nas, was signed to Universal Motown via his own imprint, Ether Boy Records. Since signing with Universal Motown in September of 2008, Browz produced three massive hit singles: the collaborative track “Pop Champagne” featuring Jim Jones, “Jumpin’ Out the Window” and “Arab Money” featuring Busta Rhymes. “Currently me and Universal decided it was best for us to part ways as far as business, because little creative differences,” Browz told AllHipHop.com exclusively. “I love Sylvia [Rhone]. Sylvia was the first person to give me an opportunity to show the world what I could as far as being an artist.” Browz, born Rondell Turner, is continuing on with his career, while negotiating with various recording companies for his next deal. The rapper recently shot a video for his new single “$20 Dollarz,” which should be released in the next two weeks. The remix to the track features OJ Da Juiceman, Jim Jones, Shawty Lo, Nicki Minaj and a new verse by fellow Harlemite, Mase. On the production side, Browz recently produced “She’s A Killer” on Ghostface’s new album The Wizard of Poetry, Nicki Minaj’s new track “Get Crazy” and an upcoming tune by crooner Bobby Valentino. Browz, who used the controversial Autotune technology on his two biggest hits, as well as the track he just produced for Ghostface’s Wizard album, shared his opinion on the voice enhancing effect. “People criticized it, but you can’t deny hot records,” Browz told AllHipHop.com. “All these records was crazy in the club. And the funny thing is, after D.O.A., it seemed like more Autotune records came out after the record came out.” Ron Browz is currently working on his major label solo debut.
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Tracklist: Disc 1: 01. Chip On My Shoulder 02. Bottom To The Top (Feat. Mike D) 03. Denzel Washington (Feat. Chamillionaire) 04. Haters Got Me Wrong (Feat. Chris Ward And Gucci Mane) 05. Raw 06. I Can’t Leave Drank Alone (Feat. Lil’ O) 07. Rolling On Swangas (Feat. Chris Ward) 08. Don’t Worry Bout Mine (Feat. Big Pokey) 09. Fondren And Main (Feat. DJ Screw) 10. We Don’t Speed (Feat. Lil’ Flip) 11. Gangsta Girl (Feat. Billy Cook) 12. Thank You (Feat. Lil’ Flip) 13. The Life (Feat. Lil’ O) 14. Southside (Feat. Lil’ Flip) 15. I Don’t Give A Damn Disc 2: 01. Rest In Peace Hawk 02. That’s The Type Of Nigga I Am 03. Stick Of Dro (Feat. Trae Tha Truth) 04. Drop The Top 05. Fire In My Eyes 06. I Gotta Stay On My Grind 07. Respect Something (Feat. Billy Cook) 08. Don’t Be Like Me 09. Let It Go 10. One Woman Man 11. Paying Dues (Feat. Big Moe) 12. Bring My Mail 13. Top Notch (Remix)(Feat. Staci Russell) 14. Vince Young 15. Swang On 4’s 16. Boss (Feat. Mya) 17. Move Your Body 18. Wood-Grain Grippin (Feat. KB And Trae Tha Truth) 19. Slow Loud And Bangin (Live) DOWNLOAD HERE
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1. Bishop is Back (Produced by Anno Domini) 2. I'm Holdin' 3. Without My Grip 4. Fuck With Me (Produced by Anno Domini) 5. All of Me 6. Can't Forget About You 7. Angel Witta Dirty Face (Produced by Innascent) 8. March Forth (ft. Bynoe of Tha Riot Squad)(Produced by Anno Domini) 9. Something's Gotta Give - Bishop The Greek, Anonymity & Johnny Rush (The Guttament)(Produced by 2Deep) 10. Bynoe Speaks 11. Gangsta Party (ft. Bynoe of Tha Riot Squad) 12. Die Tonight (Tonight's the Night) 13. I Used to Give A (ft. Bynoe of Tha Riot Squad) 14. Make You Move (Produced by 2Deep) 15. Pimp Game Up (Produced by M. Moses) 16. Black Democrat 17. Choose You 18. Lookin' Like That (ft. Chinx Drugz & Bynoe of Tha Riot Squad)(Produced by Anno Domini) 19. All Eyes On Me 20. The Obituary (Part 1)(Produced by Beatstreet) 21. Take A Look (Bonus Track) - Bynoe DOWNLOAD HERE
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HipHopWired Reports How'd that slug feel going in ya mouth u B***H A** N***A lol... Stop lying to these people like u tough P***Y!!! Whoever started this whole Internet thuggin' and the idea that a person can talk tough through text or even worse, Twitter, should be slapped across the face. What has the world come to when people are sending threats and flexing muscle through a keyboard? Rapper Fabolous has started an epidemic of trash talk as many are using this new outlet to air out opponents. For some reason, Ja Rule will not allow himself to let his past with 50 Cent go. Just accept the L and move on because there's no point in fueling a past in which you caught the mightiest of losses. Although stating that 50 is the last thing on his mind, such things as this makes the rapper come off as still being a little bitter and hot over what happened. “I want ppl to know that I'm not thinking about this clown boo boo but he's always mentioning my name tell this n***a to get off my D**K! Lol” The fire was lit under Ja when 50 referred to his old adversary as a “sucka” and he quickly reverted back to grade school to unleash a response when asked. RT @mafiosoglok GLOK ON THE SPOT: Q: @RuleYork What do you think about @50Cent calling you a sucka still live on Ustream? By ending his prolonged beef with DMX, it felt as though Ja was back to deliver the positivity that was part of his career when he was signing with Ashanti. Obviously, the rapper still has to pump up his chest every now and then to give a reminder that he still is a gangsta in the streets. Don't be so quick to forget that he made “Thug Lovin” with Bobby Brown and let's not leave out “Clap Back.” Look, all of this energy and aggression should be focused on something that can help, not hurt. If you like to sing songs, go do that, who cares what 50 said if it worked. Going back and forth is only wasting time and breath.
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Method Man Arrested For Tax Evasion

HipHopWired Reports Already having his fair share of issues with the law, things have taken a turn for the worse for Wu Tang staple, Method Man. Meth was arrested today by New York police for tax evasion. According to WABC New York, the rapper owes the government over $30,000 in taxes. Meth, real name Clifford Smith, is reportedly in police custody waiting for arraignment. He's charged with failure to pay personal income tax and earnings and misdemeanor failure to pay taxes. He faces up to four years behind bars if convicted. Earlier this year Meth made headlines after a woman accused of him shooting her with a pellet gun. That case is still pending. He also faced tax issues in 2008 when his Lincoln Navigator was repossessed by the Department of Taxation.
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NEW YORK — For fans of New York hip-hop, it was an amazing sight: 50 Cent surrounded by not just the G-Unit, but D-Block, the Diplomats, Red Café, Cory Gunz, Maino and newcomer Trav. What a moment! On Saturday night, Fif held his first ThisIs50 Music Festival on Governors Island (a longtime military base in New York Harbor that is gradually being transformed into a public park), where some of his favorite artists converged on one stage. "I wanted to make a festival that didn't necessarily have to have an artist [who has a] single in rotation at the time," 50 explained to MTV News at the show. "That doesn't directly reflect good hip-hop. It reflects marketing dollars spent by the major corporations, the companies. Tonight we have everybody that means something to us musically in one spot. When I bring Cory Gunz, Trav, Maino ..." Just then D-Block rolled up. "Check this out, this is impressive: Now we got Jadakiss out here. This is real! Tell me anywhere else you can go where you can see everybody. It represents different portions of hip-hop. You got the Lox, the new young gunners Cory Gunz, Trav, Maino. Jimmy [Jones] and Juelz [Santana] coming. They say New York City, we don't actually get along, that's not true. We could work together and get more money than we can get apart, and they gonna see us do it in the future." Fif's bill also included openers Wale and Kid Cudi, who brought all the hits from their young careers such as "Chillin' " and "Day N' Nite," respectively. Then you had Papoose, Slaughterhouse, the aforementioned Cory Gunz and Trav, then the more established crews — Diplomats, D-Block and G-Unit — closing out. "We mixed it up," Fif said of the set. "We made a set that got all of us rocking. They get to see it properly, so they get to see all of us rocking at different points in the actual sets, not just who got positioned. You know how sometimes you go to the tour and some people's music is louder than others? They fix it. As long as [the audience] leaves saying that everybody that came out to the festival had a good time, it's mission accomplished." The Dips came out with a flurry of their NYC bred hits such as "Gangsta Music" and "Hey Ma." The Unit was next. 50, Lloyd Banks and Tony Yayo came out to "Crack a Bottle" and Fif threw his leather jacket (probably worth a few thousand dollars) out in the crowd. "Ryder Music" came next, followed by a small piece of "I Get Money." Shortly after Fif rapped his classic line "have a baby by me baby, be a millionaire," the music transitioned to Fif's new single, "Baby by Me." Shortly into that song, Fif instructed DJ Whoo Kid to stop the music. He wasn't getting the reaction he wanted. "Who did you come to see?" he asked. "I know. We in New York City and they don't wanna hear the lovey dovey sh--. You want me to take y'all back? "What Up Gangsta" came next. After "OK, You're Right," Fif turned the stage over to D-Block for a short set. The Yonkers collective rocked the crowd with hardcore tunes such as "Walk Witt Me," "Kiss Your Ass Goodbye" and "Who's Real." The Unit came back out with "Ayo Technology" and a sprinkling of other hits before giving Maino some shine with his big hit "Hi Hater" and "All the Above." Red Café and Wyclef Jean also made guest appearances — Clef jumped in the crowd during his performance. "50 Cent represents the struggle of the black man," Jean proclaimed before going into "Sweetest Girl." 50 Banks and Yayo returned for a fuller, complete version of "I Get Money" and closed, bringing out '90s-era R&B group Intro for their "Funny How Time Flies" — it's one of Fif's favorite records. The ThisIs50 Festival may not be a one-off — Fif said he's thinking about taking the show on the road. Source : MTV
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Video After The Jump Fat Joe's new album has laid claim to yet another victim. Officer Rick Ross listened to it before his show and as you can see, he fell off the stage and struggled to get up. I think there needs to be some kind of criminal investigation into the subliminal messages Joey Crack's album is sending out. First 50 Cent, then Young Buck, now The Bawse This "noise poisoning" is turning into an epidemic !
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Video After The Jump MSNBC Reports No decision she ever made or ever expects to make was more agonizing or more controversial. After 18 months of pouring her love and efforts into bonding with her adoptive son, Anita Tedaldi realized it wasn’t working and gave the child to another family. “I loved him and I cared deeply for him,” Tedaldi told TODAY’s Matt Lauer Thursday in New York. “I tried to do the same exact thing I did with my biological children, but over time it became clear that our family maybe wasn’t a good match for him, that we were unable to meet some of his needs.” Tedaldi inspired both praise and condemnation when she wrote in The New York Times’ Motherlode blog about the orphan boy she and her husband adopted — whom, they learned, had been found abandoned at the side of a road . The child’s exact age could not be determined (details that have been reported about the child’s age, place of origin, and new family have been altered to protect his identity). His legs were underdeveloped, and his head was flat in the back from being left in a crib unattended. The controversy has spread to the blog written by TODAY’s Natalie Morales, who wrote about it after reporting Tedaldi’s story. After reading Tedaldi’s story in the Times, Morales observed: “It’s a piece that will bring you to tears.” She did her homework It also brought Tedaldi to wrenching tears. She and her husband, who is in the U.S. military and is frequently deployed overseas, had three natural children. They wanted to adopt to share their blessings with a child who otherwise would have had little hope. “I had wanted to adopt for a long time, even before I met my husband or had my biological daughters,” she wrote in her blog entry. “I’ve always wanted a large family, like the one I grew up with in Italy, and I love the chaos and liveliness of many kids.” Tedaldi said she wasn’t going into adoption blind or with false expectations. “I did lots of research on adoption, including attachment problems and other complications that older adopted children can have,” she wrote. “I spoke to my therapist and went through a thorough screening process with social workers to figure out if I, and my family, could be a good match for a child who needed a home.” She was ecstatic when she picked up the boy, whom she identifies only as “D.,” after months of waiting, Tedaldi recounted. But as much as she poured herself into the challenges of raising him along with her natural children, she realized that she wasn’t connecting with him, and that he wasn’t bonding with her at that visceral level that only a parent understands. As time went on, Tedaldi began to consider giving him up to another adoptive family, but first, she sought out a therapist to help her bond with D. “Still, I struggled,” Tedaldi wrote. “One day ... I was on the phone with Jennifer, our social worker, who merely asked ‘what's up’ when I blurted out that I couldn't parent D., that things were too hard. “As soon as I said these words out loud, a flood of emotions washed over me, and I sobbed, clutching the phone with both hands.” An agonizing decision Problems with D. were also affecting her marriage, and when her husband was home between deployments, they found themselves fighting nearly constantly. Finally, the family made the wrenching decision to go to an agency to find a new home for D. Tedaldi and “Samantha,” D.’s new mother, spent days meeting together with the boy to smooth the transition. Tedaldi wrote movingly of the last time she saw D. “I kneeled down and pulled D. close to me, desperately wanting to impress an indelible memory of my son on me, and me on him, inhaling his scent, feeling his soft skin and touching his coarse hair. In our last moments together, I stared into his eyes and told him that I loved him and that I had tried to do my best,” she wrote. “His new mom would love him so, so much; my little man would be OK. He didn’t cry, he stared back at me, then looked to Samantha and asked for more juice.”
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